Sometimes..

Sometimes I really just want to cry. December has been so hard on us, and the fact that it is continuing onto January is not making it any easier. I miss stability, I miss home, I miss my life. This needs to be done and over with, because I can't handle this anymore. I'm a walking disaster. I have a hard time sleeping, I'm eating terrible foods, and I'm drinking like everyday... I'm just feeling like a terrible mother for putting my child through this and we can't even live in our own home. I'm a wreck. We are even behind soo much on our bills now which isn't helping and I've been so stressed that I started smoking again which is just taking more of our money. I can't do this anymore. I'm losing this battle now... And I don't know how to to handle it.